hey guys, um.. well im 23, I am the oldest of two boys I also have 4 sisters two of which who or older the oldest 27 and the youngest 19, well thanks god I found this place! I have been searching for some kind of family tree or website or anything to link me to any possible family members my age or just any age that is living, I do not attend school right now but I do work in San jose, ca as a waiter in the downtown area. I dont come from a very close family I guess I can say , I mean I dont know any of my family members except for maybe a handful and they dont care to know my family at all for unknow reasons, it kinda hearts my feelings, no it does alot,my grandparents "Tilly" and "Martin" recently passed on around the end of last year and it made me really sad, I never really got to know them, they lived in arizona with a lot of my other family members,I didnt quite understand why that part of the family didnt want my family around, and I hate having to come up with terrible excuses as to why they chose to neglect the fact that we are family and my dad really needs his family, when my dads parents died I think I almost new what it was like for my father to lose his family I have not really been apart of my families life only because my own family chooses to not understand me, I live a diferent lifestyle then of there's. i do not live my life dangerously I happen to be very aware of my life and value it very much. They, like my fathers family have also distanced themselfs from my life, although they are not dying or dead I cant help but to feel sometimes what it is like to live in a real scary world, knowing I have know one beside me, to walk with me through my own life experiences, challenging rewarding or painful, I do not want to be forgotten or unknown in my family as someone who didnt care, maybe thats why I have found you all finally, I want to be known, I want to be remembered, I want to know you, I want you to know who I am and what I look like, my goal is not to win an academy award for most dramatic performance, but I would really like to know if there is maybe someone out there that understands me and is also searching for something else, another kind of family that just might happen to be your family anyway, but never knew it or even believed there were more zamarrons out there. I do not want to know just the zamarron's I already know, there has to be someone else, that wants to know me ,who I am, what I am really all about, what I look like ,if I might look like you, what my dreams are, if I'm even worth knowing, for anyone that I dont know that would like to know more about my extended family or just a little more about me dont be shy write me let me know Im not alone in this search for all the same reasons, to find the rest of my family.